12/24/11: Denial Stage

*Drunk Blogger*

There are five stages of coping with dying. These are:

1. Denial

2. Anger

3. Bargaining

4. Depression

5. Acceptance

Why enumerating? As of now, I'm in the middle of a situation that only I can understand. I haven't told anything yet to my friends, my parents, not even to myself 'cause I don't wanna talk about it first.

I don't wanna think about it...
I don't wanna think that there's no more "US".
I don't wanna think that all promises are gone already.
I don't wanna think that "always and forever" ended last 12/22/11.
I don't wanna think that "beyond infinity" doesn't exist.
I don't wanna think that I loss the man I've wanted to spend my forever with.

Oh God, I'm crying... Now you know why I entitled this "Denial Stage." I don't wanna blog further anymore, I'm sorry.

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When I reach the Depression Stage, I'll deactivate my twitter, facebook, and tumblr. I'll only use this, my blogspot, and blog all day and night. I'll only activate everything if and only if I already reach the Acceptance stage. I know it's gonna be a tough 2012 for me. But I know God is with me.